My Psychiatric Label and How I Got It.
By Patricia Lefave, Labeled, D.D. (P)

Segment 6

 2:20:17 PM
But, and though it will distress my protagonist who is trained not to use that word, I mean BUT, if those who see good where there is evil, (or the other way around) are also the ones who are in "total control," and have gained the unquestioned concrete power to create and define reality itself, for anyone who does not agree with them, or their system, then we are all going to be losers in this "game" of life. You either get that, or it will get you. The worst thing that can happen to leaders such as these is that they will actually get what they 'think" they want, and then realize after it is too late that they are indeed ‘the Source of their own pain’ and the Emperors of the Hell of their own creation.

We are all BOTH cause and effect in the circle of life. Not one OR the other. It is how we see ourselves that makes the difference between possible outcomes of Heaven or Hell. This is natural knowledge acquired by direct observation of reality; the kind we all have as children when we see and hear the blatantly obvious which we are later trained by the generation before to deny, in order to get their stamp of approval. We are taught to put a veil over the truth, a facade, a false image of nice manners, a ready plastic smile, and to deliver shallow compliments. (My...that's a nice shirt you have on today...it really brings out the glazed look in your over drugged eyeballs) We are taught by example to accept political manipulations and to play head games with people as a "norm." We are told by those running these systems that if we do not agree to do the same, we are just stupid and/or ‘abnormal.’ I have been told by way of all the experts all over town and beyond, that I have a serious "mental illness" for "thinking" I see the truth that they do not see, that I am a genetic defective, and that there is something wrong with my brain for which I need "treatment" from them. You see everything that I have said about my own protagonist who did this to me, and his co-workers who have supported and enabled him, has been denied by those in involved, allegedly as they were directed to do by my protagonist's employers, the psychiatric hospital where he still works. Therefore, if the event itself did not, and does not exist, my "claiming" that It did (and does) is just my bid for attention/fame (switch!) which makes ME manipulative and destructive and not him,

OR,

I actually believe this event took place which makes ME "delusional," not him, or, god forbid, any of them.

Either way, I am nominated to be the mental case and the guy who started it, his co-workers, and everyone else who involved themselves gets to sidestep responsibility for It.

The psychiatrist who labelled me took ten, or perhaps, eleven, minutes to do it. He had never even met me before. But he, like most of the others, know "paranoid sounds" when they hear them. Then the manipulative, coercive pressure was started all over again. It really is like talking to the wall. This psychiatrist tried to tell me that it could not have happened that a nurse would have "set me up" for a group attack, as he would have "no reason" to DO so." Everybody must be operating on logic apparently, as far as psychiatrists are concerned except, of course, those who are sitting across from them at the desk in their offices cubicles, complaining about being harmed by some ‘others.’  All of us ‘others,’  the complainers, are automatically thought to be "delusional", based on abstract concepts, apart from any and all evidence, unless proved otherwise. Try proving it though, even with evidence, and see how far you get.

It was about a month after my own instant labelling that I found the book laying out all the contents of the nurse's ‘secret’ training  for me, where I learned that his power over me comes from his being trained to BE "unreasonable." Pretty darned cute isn’t it? I doubt if you would think so if you had been the one on the receiving end of this as I and many others have been.

So, in the end, I get "enlightened" by him when I discover that I am caught in a snare (circular) trap, from which there is no escape possible without understanding his "game" and It's starting point, (Source) and of course then becoming able to find someway to prove it. This of course is close to impossible since everyone he involved in the attack on me, is doing his or her best to ensure the truth does not see the light of day and that I can never decipher what is going on with them. (In this case though, I have managed to figure it all out.) They are not trying to resolve anything as I told my team of psychiatrists many years ago; they are trying to make sure it does NOT get resolved, for then that would be (as one of them put it), “opening up a can of worms.”  Since they have all agreed together (conspired covertly) to keep the truth concealed to ‘take care of their own interests,’  my protagonist then "wins" his pre-planned game of domination by getting me "totally controlled" by It. This is the outcome which he expected for he had already seen it happen inside the ‘secret’ training; a training that he was also told to keep ‘secret’ and then just ‘share the ‘experience’ out here in the world of reality. Who is it that is rumoured to have suggested that I was "schizophrenic" in the first place? Allegedly, I heard (or ‘hallucinated’ if you prefer) that it was the same guy.

Once we, as the targets of control, have been given our psychiatric labels, designed for containment, and invalidation of us as human beings, virtually everything we say, think, feel or do, can be stated to be "proof" that we "deserve" that label. Our report of the group event, complaints and emotional reactions to the constant invalidation and pressure is all covered in advance before the event even begins. It is written down in the DSM; the psychiatric bible used by those who have turned their invalidation, denial, and need to control into concrete reality. Can anyone doubt anything that has been written down and so made "real"?

Perhaps you can now understand the punch line of my protagonist's "joke"? I wonder if HE really understands It. It goes: “In life, understanding is the booby prize” to which he added one word…’sorry.’ He wrote it down and then the day he passed it to me in the psychiatric hospital dining room, I showed it to a co-worker saying, this is the kind of stuff I get from him when I ask what, if anything he wants…What the hell is that supposed to mean?’ It puzzled her too yet she is one of the people who helped HIM and I think she may have even been someone who got him access to one of my apartments as well.  I need an investigation to either prove or disprove that since I cannot do it myself. You may be ‘shocked’ to ‘find out’ that people who break laws don’t like to admit to that …as it may cause THEM problems. (Did you know that gaining access to ‘things’ is also part of his training concepts.)

Only a concrete investigation will allow you and I to know for sure how much of this "game" he has really directed himself, and how much grew out of the "groupthink" or mob mentality which he created with the "switch" that got It all going in the first place. As I went through this, what struck me was the universal error generated by the 'switch" which then gets promoted as "reality." It is a lot like just calling the dark, "light." Some might call that "original sin." Others may refer to it as the ‘faulty premise.’ I recognized this pattern of behaviour in families, workplaces, school groups, and in psychiatry itself.

Before I broke down under the unrelenting stress and pressure the group was seemingly urged to apply, (to ‘save’ me) it occurred to me that I knew what the phenomenon of "schizophrenia" actually is. It is this. This is It. It is a group phenomenon and not something ever so neatly contained in whoever is ‘complaining’ about being harmed. So, I told those listening while pretending they weren't, "Talk directly to me. It's important." Twelve years later, (fifteen as of this post date) they continue to deny the reality of themselves, while still "observing" me as "the subject." I remain the ‘thing,’ or the ‘item’ to use my protagonist’s jargon, which he has ‘experienced out of his circle.’ They still believe they are "hiding" from me despite the fact that I have told them they are not. The "levelling" continues. The source of this metaphysical illness is not found in the individual; It's in the whole group. It is the group which is manipulated by the aggressor to accept as "reality" whatever he/she is unloading subjectively onto his/her victim. Group dysfunction then takes over and the projection of all the flaws and negative emotions of the participants is added to the ‘sick’ ones’ load, which has already overwhelmed him or her. 

Eventually, if it is not stopped, the weight of it breaks ‘the sick one.’ Once broken, driven into psychosis by the unrelenting stress and constant invalidation of perceptions and emotions by the group, this is said to ‘prove’ the ‘sickness’ lies in the victim and only the victim. The metaphysical snare is now complete and the ‘sick one’ is trapped inside a closed system with all possible escape routes already blocked.  This is why lying to, or about, the victim does not matter to the aggressor; it is the beliefs of the GROUP that matters, not the victim, for it is the group which supports and enables his power and control over his victim. He could not do it without them, and he could not cover up the fact that he did it without their co-operation either. Aggressors who are without conscience or contrition ALWAYS justify themselves by claiming their victim is the cause of the aggressor's behaviour. (All arguments are circular) As is stated in my protagonist's training, "either the light is on or the light is off.'' (You either see the WHOLE thing from the true starting point or you're not getting it at all.)

Ultimately my protagonist is to be ‘enlightened’ about his own self destructive power as he must realize that it is the side of him that identifies with the aggressor that causes the other side of him to remain a permanent victim of his own illogic in this paradoxical trap, though he is too arrogant to see that it is true that what ‘goes around, comes around’ and will finally ‘knock him on his (own) ass.’ The "Source" is right you see. On the psycho-spiritual level of concepts there is only the NOW; a level of collective consciousness or unconsciousness, which some would call life or death. All who have their ego structures fragmented, or torn down, by any means will enter into that transcendent moment of life/death, the right brain perception of the whole, including some who were childhood abuse victims like Adolph Hitler.

The question could be asked, "Did Hitler create the source of his own pain OR did the source create Hitler? The question is moot at this point. Either way, the leader of this re-creation is also the source of HIS ‘own pain.’ May he wake up now to the truth of It.

As to the rest of you supporting ‘It’, focus on this: When you get to the point that you recognize it is the false premise that is making this mess, the "switched positions" between aggressor and victim, perhaps you will stop "volunteering" to support and enable aggressors. It means BOTH sides must give up the "game." We must stop "volunteering" to accept responsibility for BEING the victims of aggressors AND we stop "volunteering" to become the next generation of aggressors with hidden agendas of domination, while deluding ourselves that we are "superior" for doing so. When everyone stops "volunteering" to support the basic structure of ‘It’, then It will collapse. "It" is volunteer dependent.

If we remain self deluded as a group, and blind to that simple truth, and continue to "let ‘It’ go," ‘It’ will ‘create the disappearance’ of everything and everyone. A little religious "delusion" for you psychiatrists: “In the beginning was the word; and the word was with God; and the word WAS God."

Words are very powerful. They can be used to harm or to heal, to destroy or to create. It depends upon HOW we use them and to what end. May some of my words help heal those of you who have suffered along with me and had your suffering denied and mocked.

This system, by whatever name it is known, is about suppressing the truth, hiding the goal, the motivation, and the plans to dominate, by putting on an ‘act’ the majority will accept as "reality." No questions asked. The end point of this line of "reasoning" (illogic) is death, one way or another. As the Psych Professor states in her analysis, "This family is a classic; patriarchal and autocratic. The training is a precisely articulated series of manipulations, carefully designed to produce the desired effects....The price of obtaining her (the mother's) nurturance is surrender of autonomy to the all controlling father."

In another part she refers to "the family romance" which sustains it.