The Attempted Depersonalization and Reconstruction of My Identity

By Patricia Lefave, Labelled, D.D. (P)

So as we can see now, we either get it (really understand the ‘game’ as a whole) or we ‘get it. (Are destroyed by our failure to see what is right in front of us) That is why Fenwick’s book cover asked. “Can you get it…Can it get you?”  Those are the opposing sides of the same experience; one which in my opinion has NO ‘winners’ and only losers. You get to identify with either the ‘winners’ or ‘losers’, and become enlightened about being the targets of abuse or choose to abuse the power yourself.

It is keeping the two sides apart that keeps it going.

The psychiatric hospital staff did that for my protagonist when they allegedly instructed the group involved which was led by him, not to ‘admit’ to anything and then ‘covertly ‘ instructed me as the target (“patient”) to refrain from confronting my abuser or the group that supported him. Further to that I was also instructed not to attempt to talk about this in public as this too would be unacceptable behaviour on MY part and a psychiatrist would then of course, need to take further action to prevent it. To reinforce these instructions, threats of job loss (which were later fulfilled) and restraint, diagnosis and further ‘treatment’ were used without any concern, it would seem, of questionable ethics.

What makes the difference when playing the same psychological ‘game’ with psychiatry as the game we ‘play’ ‘amateur’ dysfunctional groups and their hidden agenda of domination is POWER.

Psychiatry has very real concrete power to force us to accept the imposition of its beliefs and desires against our wills and there is NOTHING we can do about it. “Reason’ doesn’t work, nor can we just get away from them. Unlike the general public, they can stalk us legally and then get away with denying the ever did it. Other dysfunctional groups do not have that mind of unquestioned power.  Psychiatry shouldn’t have it either. That is why I keep fighting for the other ‘side’; the side of those who apparently CAN be blamed, and blamed for just having thoughts or feelings, for complaining, or for being ‘crazy’ without any evidence of any kind presented as proof of that ‘reality.’

The system wanted to ‘reduce my awareness’ for my own good. At least, that is the way it was presented to me. Like with the cooking of food, when cooking up genetic defects, ‘presentation’ is a big part of getting approval for what is being dished out. (How’s that for a nice ‘crazy’ metaphor?)

The real reason they wanted to ‘reduce my awareness’ though is to ensure themselves that I could be convinced that I was not aware of them and their lousy behaviour and therefore could be made to believe I had just ‘imagined’ the whole thing. Of course, if ‘nothing happened’ what exactly is it I was to be convinced I had only imagined? Is that to be sure I would be incapable of ever being able to identify reality? If they could do that, they could all get off the hook and take care of their own interests at my expense.

The mental health professionals who have assigned themselves the role of defining reality and sanity for all of us ‘others’ apparently saw no ethical dilemma in that at all. Of course, my protagonist had already seen this result from observing the group experience and behaviour inside the training which he was recreating here in concrete reality. That too is part of the instruction of the training itself. I believe HE picked ‘Power.’

He seemed to find it all a satisfying experience. I, on the other hand, am determined to finish it and bring everyone involved in it some real ‘enlightenment.’

All dysfunctional groups close ranks and protect themselves by trying to isolate and pressure those who threaten their group functioning. Want to use a bio medical model? Ok. How about this ne then? Using scapegoats is nothing new or startling unless you have been living your life in a deep coma. The groups behave like a ‘body’ which identities a foreign ‘substance’ attacking it from within, so the ‘body’ reacts much like an immune system and tries to eject or destroy the ‘alien invader.’ With dysfunction though, the identified foreign substance is really more like a nice big shot of anti biotic but the body does not recognize it as such and perceives it as a disease. So while psychiatry compares me and those like me to ‘diabetes’ I will compare them and their loyal group followers to an auto immune disorders, let’s say Lupus. Us ‘nuts’ are trying to get those with Psychiatric Lupus to take care of their own illness. Got this analogy OK?

Fine then; moving along with the metaphor: Since the body makes this major error, it attacks its own healing medicine and therefore its own ‘cure.’

When I was in my own recovery therapy, my therapist asked me how I thought the group scapegoat was chosen and I told her I believed it was the person who was the most conscious member of the group as that was from where the perceived ‘threat’ to the group mind and dysfunction was coming. THAT is what ‘threatens the dysfunctional status quo.

So the group dis-ease is projected onto the individual who is isolated, invalidated, forced out and officially defined as a ‘disease’ that requires ‘diagnosis and treatment.’  Once ‘reality’ has been successfully reversed by making it the mirror image of itself, the dysfunctional group can breathe a collective sigh of relief.

It was a close call for my own group. They ‘almost’ got forced into self awareness, but ‘luckily’ they worked together and came to an agreement to keep the lid on that can of worms.

Now that the one threatening them with too much ‘awareness’ has been stopped and given awareness reduction meds, they can even congratulate themselves on ‘helping’ the ‘sick’ one become more like THEM.  

In this reality reversal, that is how this ‘anti-biotic’ (anti bio psych) gets identified as the ‘illness’ and the illness conversely gets mis-identified as the ‘cure.’ (Common psychiatric metaphor: “Wonderland.”) ‘We’ don’t ‘think ‘we’ are in a book. ‘We’ think we are in a life situation that is patterned identically to a lot of the books we have read, and some of the movies we have seen too, like the Matrix for example Joel.  

Once the reality reversal is complete and official, the group can deny the entire event even took place and claim it is all just a perception/reaction problem coming from WITHIN the now labelled and well contained one.

So, who is it that is actually being ‘fooled’ here when everyone knows the event took place just as described?

Answer: the original protagonist(s) and the group of supporters/enablers are deluding THEMSELVES that their dysfunctional ways are not seen nor heard by others.

Why would they want to do that?

So they don’t have to see anything wrong with them, feel bad about anything or change their minds. Instead they change the minds of those who threaten the group delusion.

Dysfunctional relating is a closed system. All escape routes are already blocked BEFORE the individual enters the system.

Escape is blocked metaphysically with aphorisms, platitudes, invalidation, group pressure, denial of evidence, confusion, contradiction, multiple versions of ‘reality’ isolation, rejection, threats and punishments.

The ONLY way out is to understand the WHOLE thing from start to finish, escape from it metaphysically and then expose it for the world to see.

In other words, the only way to ‘win’ this game is to learn to STOP playing it.